I was doing great today, really great actually, then I had to click on it.
I thought I'd feel ok and not be affected.
But I was, clearly.
It couldn't stop flashing through my head for the rest of the day.
Maybe texting her a few uneasy messages did clear things up.
"I won't go back"
Neither will I ever take you back.

"just concentrate" wow fuck, easy to say when you're not the one at the losing end.
I think death wouldn't be as bad as this.
I must stay off the computer for the next few weeks.

Someone new has emailed me, it's quite nice, it makes me happy.

Church really brought me back to ground and out of self pity it really helped, a lot. I'm going to delete the past 3 posts.
I don't like them.