I still feel unfamiliar emotions that temporarily eats me alive. I don't understand this feeling/feelings and it is stupid that I still think about it but I know there'll come a day I'll have completely moved on. I can wish for many things. You wish I would've moved on, so do I. I don't understand why I gave it my best, just like how I did with Cheez but I could leave her without feeling anything. I knew i gave my best shot and it wasn't enough, I came to a conclusion that it'll never work and that was why I moved on so fast. I've always wanted the best for her even as friends. Tried to understand and failed at times. I can't understand, this seems slightly different. Very different. I can't comprehend but I've grown stronger and I dunno what I'm typing. I just feel kinda uneasy now like I want to throw up, curl into a ball and hide inside my pillow-made cave with totoro. Somehow, I trust inanimate objects more than humans and most of the time I rather talk to them. Now I sound like a crazy person.

Time will heal because your brain can only keep a certain amount of memories, you experience more as time passes by and you know... I seem to really hate completing my sentences now

I can't define anything, everything is too uncertain.