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John Mayer makes me feel depressed.
He used to make me feel happy but now he just reminds me on what a loser I am.
So I've to stop listening to him.
I love successful people but I can't stand them too.
I know, I'm suppose to feel somewhat motivated to be successful because they're like role models or something.
But right now, my exams are coming sooo.. I've to study all the fucking rubbish that I don't want to study.
Sometimes, I think about doing economics as a carreer but I don't think I'd like that very much.
I'd rather be an artist. That way, I can have more time to do other things.. Like freelance work. So I'll never really be tied down. Only tied down to projects that I like.
Omg all this talk about the future really scares me. I don't want to grow old, I want to be 17 forever. Okay maybe not 17 but 18 or 19. 17 is a bit too young for my liking.
T_T oh geez, I can't believe I've turned my back on John Mayer.
Maybe it is cause I slept at 630am this morning.
Yeah, I went to eat prata and study with Shaun and Robson last night till 4 plus.
Shaun sent me home and since I wans't that tired, I figured I should keep studying.
So I studied till 630 and went to bed for fear that my maid would come in with her mattress.
I don't like people to know what time I sleep.
I don't like them waking up and telling me that it is 3 in the morning and that I should sleep because they've already slept for 2 hours.
I don't like to be reminded that it is already 6 in the morning and that I'd be sleeping my whole morning away.

RANT