Someone needs ta get serious beatins

I would like to drag her out and whack her with a bamboo pole till her skull splits into two, so that she'll know how physical pain feels like.
I would like to trap her in a tiny cell which is only big enough for her to sit down so that she will understand how prison feels like.
Most of all, I want her to experience what death is so that she will learn respect.
So that she will understand how not to hurt others.
I really do want to beat her till she gets permanent damage so that she won't hurt others.

It is a vicious cycle which I will never understand. The more you accept it, the deeper and more painful it will become. The deeper you go, the harder it is to let go.
It goes round and round and hopefully, one day, I will know what to do the next time it happens. Right now, everyone doesn't know what is Really actually the right thing to do.

So much for a beautiful Valentines day.
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I spent the past 2 days with Cheez and Ann.

Spent V-day with N and Ann at NYJC. We had a good look at the school and its culture, which I think is rich, coming from me, I do feel a bit weird complimenting school.
I bumped into Adria who brought us around. She did look happier and much more open at NYJC so I do believe life in secondary school is always shit and that in JC things will get better.

Headed to heartland mall in the PL uniform, which made us the ahlians who skipped school and had no brains to change out of the uniform. Bought a pair of specs and had lunch.

N came over to take a nap (Get well soon!) and I met Cheez at night.
My dreams have become weirder and more disturbing. The latest night mare I had left me in cold sweat. I woke up feeling queasy and feverish. Everything so explicit and Real.
We ran for our lives and I tumbled down the hill. I cried my eyes out, confused and unsure as to run away or stay. I watched you get murdered and raped, many people, people who I love and who love me.

(My mom just came in and talked to me for 15 minutes about my Dad, so I kinda lost my train of thoughts)

Anyway, Cheez is an absolute darlin! She cooked for me and Ann today (Friday). I was really impressed, her cooking is amazing and Ann's truffles are even better.
It is the kind of good quality chocolate that you'll purchase from Chocz.
The bitterness and soft stickiness which melts in you mouth will give you an ultimate orgasm.
She told me she spent about 50 bucks on ingredients just for a small batch, so you can imagine how tasty and how high class it really is.
I told her to set up an online shop and I think what's most important (besides having good tasty food) is the passion and love that goes with it.
I've never seen anyone as passionate about food as her (Really.)

Anyway, I love you Cheez and Saewhore.