The first and not the last

Tragic

I skipped school today knowing that school will be a waste of time and energy, hoping that staying at home will prove to be more productive and hoping that I'll have less of a headache (Which I've been proven wrong.)

My neighbour is drilling his walls yet again, the grass cutters are cutting the grass, the apartment building beside my condo is drilling shit through the ground and nothing, nothing, can be more chaotic than This.

I'm going to exercise later, hoping to look less hideous and more pleasant and of course, to get more fit for Napfa/Nafa (I never really got the name.. That's how important sports is to me.). It is scary, running the never ending track and hopefully Not humiliating myself in front of everyone. Not that I have much of a face to salvage anyway.

I think JC either really opens you up, like how it has done for Adria (I'm not wrong, am I?) or it gets you quiet.
I think I'm the latter.
But I can't exactly think of anything to say so maybe that is why it has turned out like this.
One of the Gossip girls said that I wouldn't fit in because I'm too rebellious.
I wanted to laugh.
People with their opinions, I'll never understand the stupidity of it.
I have this problem really talking to people about engaging things now.
People bore me so easily (Not my friends.) but this is how it is right? You compromise for the first few weeks of school till everyones Full-on personality really shoots up and gets stuck in your ass. It'll either be sore or orgasmic.
So you either lose or still remain as friends.
Okay, 'lose' is such a strong word, so maybe 'fallout' would be a better word.
And, never in my life had I second guessed myself so much.
It is highly disturbing but part of my life right now.
Now, I've a problem with the fear of offending people, which I used to not care about.
Really, why should I care if they don't like me? I dunno.
I still think it's important to have friends in school. (HO! Zool is online.)

My never ending pile of problems.
I need to exercise, have my lunch, catch up on econs and maths (especially), get a tutor for Math, buy the Lit books soon, Go out to meet Cheez Gomez, Catch Leap Years, anticipate for the upcoming holidays, come up with designs designs designs for competitions and ask Adria if she's coming to my school for some artist talk next week (Are you?)
Design my room to add on to the drilling sounds you hear in my condo in the morning.

Anyway, crazy shit yesterday:
After school, my good friend, T Wong Semen, took her Dad's BMW out and fetched me from school with Jessie. Sent Jessie off, then had lunch at Gardens. Headed home (we live together, erm, since she's my bestfriend/lover.) and back at Gardens we thought "Wow thank god we missed the bookie" who was just ONE CAR AWAY FROM HER BMW, SHE FORGOT TO PUT THE TICKETS. So thank god. Anyway, her car got really Really badly scratched.
I think after having crashed the Power Box, this kinda left T and I numb.
She headed home to shower before coming over to talk and watch tv and do ABSOLUTELY STOOPZ THINGS, ha HA ha.

Life is a like a donut, a hole in the middle of my heart/life.