Embrace the pain

I'm going to self destruction, I can sense it. I fear it but like little Lyra has said or rather the polar bear said, that one will feel afraid but one must overcome it.
I will do the same and brace myself.
One more day and DD will be back.
I will squeeze her head till the tiny brackets on her teeth pops out and flies and pierces Big Birds eyes.
I don't know why, but I can't talk to her online. I can only talk to her in person or on the phone. We always have loads of stuff to talk about on the phone, well, to me at least.

Anyway, I spent my night with Vic, C, C's mom, C's sister, Ghey Bear, Enqing, My sister, Lizst and his brother at Pitch Blacks Pollen (this gig).
C and Enqing performed together. He played the piano and helped her out with her songs by composing the piano scores for her songs.
I almost cried when she sang "Missed" or "Miss" or " Mist" I don't know.
She has the most beautiful voice in the world. To prevent myself from crying I had to look away. It's almost as if you can feel her pain in some sort of way. It was really, very beautiful. She looked great tonight and she put the other singers to shame (Clearly, on top of having the best voice, she's half their age. -inserts evil laughter)
Had supper after and talked over random stuff.

My sister was 2/3 gagging throughout the performance. The 1/3 of not gagging goes to C's set of course. Okay, Not really 2/3, but her being anti-God and aetheist made her laugh and want to vomit during the second set. The lady couldn't sing and she kept singing her own composed christian songs, which were really bland. The last guy, was really gadgettish but it was pretty cool. He fused poetry with music, it really was quite awesome, but yes, mostly christian songs too.

As he stroked her sides with my fingers unmoving, she turned her head away and ignored. There is no such thing as wrong but she felt uneasy. He joked as he carried on. The girl emotionaless, she felt nothing.

3, 2, 1, now explode.