5:44am

I'm awake and I've not slept.
I'm still painting and it's not even fucking done.
Yes wtf, I've been painting for 9 hours or more.


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edit 2:23pm:
I spentmore than 14 hours on my art.I started at 4pm yesterday to 5. Then a nap. After an hour, i started to paint again.
From 6pm all the way to 6am.
My mom, just had to watch some fcking depressing movie which made me really depressed.
The movie literally drained all my happiness.
I turned to BEP, John Mayer who can see colours from music and bossa nova.
JM = my companion.
Literally listened to all his albums besides TRY and Heavier things.

I'm fucking tired, to cut to the chase, I've handed in my prep and course work.
Gnight, going to meet Twat later
Snuggles :*

edit: 11:46pm

I received my math today, after moderation I got a d7.
Oh and I realised that 44/100 is not a d7 but an e8.
So I can't apply for a JC.
I received my biology, I didnt check it, 67/100.
I received my art, B3.
wtf. My first B3 outta the 2 years taking art.
I quite like my layout but I've to admit that the painting wasn't very good.
She says that painting is not my thing and that my sketching is better, Idontknowwhattothink.
Anyway, I handed in my o level art today.
It looked good, I like it. But sometimes, it makes me kinda nauseous, the colours are so bright and vibrant. Complete opposite of Adria's.
There's always things to improve on, but judging that I painted that much for what 13 hours or so? It's good.
I'm partly trying to convince myself now by saying that it looks good over and over again because I don't exactly think it looks that great.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I've looked at it too long.
I'm not confident and I hope it doesn't show in my painting.
This is demoralising.
So far, I've gotten my English - b3, Science(chem bio) (because I failed my chem...) I got a c5, whatthefuckok, math d7, art b3.

I fail in life.
I was uh I guess pretty devastated about art. Not trying to sound cocky but I did expect an A1. Well, this just proves that Mrs Ow is not bias in any way and I suck.

Goodnight. bang bang, i shot you down.