Fucked up

What a god awful experience. I clubbed with Shalene last night at the Arena. It sucked. 1) the crowd was horrible, bloody china prostitutes everywhere. 2) Every girl had long hair and kept flicking their hair into my face 3) I got bloody smashed.

Met two Norwegian guys. Drank Martel, Whiskey Coke that I shared with Shalene only, talked to some random people, headed off alone, Drank 2 beers.

It was bloody awful bloody bloody awful. I did have some fun but waking up at 11am, feeling like there is still alcohol coursing through my veins is bloody awful. I felt like i was going to throw up but I managed to actually get back to bed.

It is stupid on my part, knowing I was already pretty unwell on saturday; I left literature lecture half way and vomited twice in school.

So I woke up at 2am, vomited twice. Still no better, Dicken's Great Expectations was actually quite comforting, reading it and slowly drifting off to sleep. So I basically slept my whole day away till 630pm.

And I had not eaten anything for 12 hours, bloody terrible.

Anyway, bad hangover and fever right now.

I had to go out and I really wanted to have some fun, it was fun but not really too.

Argh, now I have a lot of work to complete and I'm going into panic mood again.

Anyway, I have been getting really weird vibes from my school friends recently. It has made me feel very uncomfortable to be around them and I hope they are okay.

School is pretty much a prison now without the joy coming from them. They keep me grounded and somehow, I feel like thats lost. But I am sure it is a passing thing. It can't possibly last that long and I hope they will be okay.

Stress doesn't really help me. I'm going to stop now.