Lucien Freud BNW

I know that he is a really interesting artist and all but reading about him makes my head hurt. How am I suppose to visualise his works without pictures, reading about his art without pictures or colour. Black and white photocopied notes, Gah. That has got to be the worst, no?

I'm getting by fine but I don't want you to see inside my head nor see how I am doing in life or how I am going by. I want to erase you of the now, not to forget what had happened because it'll be impossible to forget what had happened. You don't deserve to see what is inside my head. I am Okay will suffice. Gah! Back to Freud and existentialism ( God I'd rather read a book about him than read the black and white notes given. GAH! They make my brain hurt)