I thought

I thought of doing film in the future but I think after experiencing filming at its best and worst. I don't think I'd want to go into it. It is quite physical and requires quite a lot of patience ( so does everything else, I know). And I've realised that it requires quite a lot of team work.
I think it is the physical bit that I'm not too keen on. Wait for rain to stop, wait for lens to unfog, move prop here and there. It wasn't extremely exhausting but just exhausting. I feel very satisfied after filming though. Acting is fun but directing on the other hand, seems more fun but much more difficult. I enjoy acting but I think I'll stick with my brushes, pencils and walcom tablet ( that is still spoilt).
Something about drawing and making sure everything is right makes me feel easy. I'm sure it requires some sort of "team work" if I decide to do it as a career. But you know, drawing things and getting help if you need any is all in ones power.

Why am I worrying about the future anyways.
I should live today as it is. By the way, today is the last day of school so I've got break till 12th of January.
There are extra lessons of course but I hope to go on an impulsive holiday soon.
Maybe I'll go to Malaysia just for the heck of it.

I was googling the art schools that some of the NYU people recommended. Pratt seems pretty awesome, still it is in America and it seems pretty far fetched but I'm just gonna do what I have to do and try my best and see where it gets me. The art schools here are.. pretty.. tragic in my opinion ( but then again besides Tisch Asia which I think is a good school (well duh?), La selle and NAFA is not my thing.)
Somehow, I really want a new environment that'll pull me out of my comfort zone. If there is anything that I can or will be worried about, it is me being the last few in class. Just a burst to that huge ass ego bubble but then again, it'd force me to ask for help and somehow I'm pretty sure I'll improve.

Oh yes and my art teacher got into trouble the other day. Well she had it coming. I talked to her one on one for about 40 minutes and told her the truth. That is " I think you are incompetent. You're irresponsible and I dunno if I can trust you" and then I explained on that. How she can't "Manage her time", how she seems so "scatter brain", how she doesn't seem sure of herself thus making us not sure of her.
It was like that, so Dahlia and Zim basically elaborated on that after I talked to her.
At this point, I do want a new art teacher but I also don't mind having Mrs Umbridge because it'd make me more independent. I mean after all, if I am stuck with a lousy art teacher, I rather I do it on my own. I know Robson thinks I'm heartless to say all that stuff. But I swear, I was as tactful as I could be.
I wasn't mocking her or being aggressive ( well okay, a little but it wasn't like I was gonna bite off her head).
I said it very "matter of factly". Because it really IS very matter of fact.
I believe I'm reasonable enough and I don't just hate her after 1 incident or because of her face.
It was continuous, this abuse. As someone from my art class has said "We're her art slaves" and we really are or we really were ( if she isn't going to be our teacher next year).
Anyway, on a professional level she is incompetent and that's even after I've cut her a ton of slack.
On a teacher and student relationship level, I don't like her. ( Based on past incidents and her attitude in general. How childish she can be oh!! How attention seeking, how kpo, how annoying.)
I avoid her as much as I can and if I do talk to her it is because I am bored and she is pretty entertaining sometimes.

Anyway, don't know what is going to happen to her.. so I will just have to wait and see..
Oh yes and Robson threw a chair at me today ( not literally throw but something like that) because I was running after him, threatening to poke him. There's this huge bump on my shin now. Hahaha, I think he isn't aware of his size and strength sometimes.
Like how he always "ACCIDENTLY" graze my boob or punch it.

Hahaha Joshua is hilarious, this was what happened today:

V: LOOK! THERE'S A BUMP ON MY LEG ROBSON! ( pulls robson's finger to feel it)
R: AHYUR I DONT WANNA TOUCH!
J: Touch everywhere already; TOUCH HER BOOB, PUNCH HER BOOB AND YOU DON'T EVEN DARE TO TOUCH HER LEG?!


Yeah, exactly!