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I have realised that I come across mean most of the time and that I'm not able to understand or react appropriately when something tragic happens.
Half the time, I shrug it off and say that the person will be fine.
I come across blunt, without thinking and I really apologise, especially to my close friends. Some jokes are just not meant to be made but I guess(??) the closer you are to someone, the more you let go and sometimes just letting out whatever is in your head. I don't mean to offend anyone. I really do beat myself over it if I say something really blunt, no matter how small of a matter it maybe.
Sometimes I watch a person/friend cry and I say stupid things like it's okay, because I don't know what to say. Sometimes I say it only because I think it's only normal to do so but honestly, sometimes I don't mean it. God, sometimes I just want to shake the person and say how stupid she is or what an attention seeking arse she really is.
For those, I really don't care.
Honestly, sometimes people are so ungrateful and they cry over the Stupidest things.
That, I really don't care.
Yeah, all I want to do is to just roll my eyes and walk away.
But I'm not a mean person, so I'll just stick with the "its okay".
(Don't get me wrong, "its okay" doesn't mean that I'm insincere all the time.)