I've lost it

I've lost the zest to blog; to write.
I've lost my feelings after yesterdays incident, I've become less self centered and now I don't think I deserve to feel sorry for myself. I'm free from depression and typical teenage angst.
Though it crawls in about once in a day.
I've been swamped with work, going out and holiday activities.
I've not been reading or drawing.
Toto-chan is still in my bag, collecting dust.
I'm sitting on Cheez's computer chair, typing this, assuming that I'm interesting.
Cheez just poured some "fragrant oil" in a dish and the circular candle with a flame is now burning it. The room smells nice.
(And I've just realised that most of my sentences above starts with "I", I'm still self centered after all!)

I can't remember my days, every thing's in a mess.
All I remember are parts of a particular day.
I can't remember most of it especially when because every thing's mushed up together.
I remembered grabbing ice cream with Domokun.
Walking down a street filled with huge empty sad looking houses.
I remember filming on wednesday, C picked me up in a cab at 8am and we headed to Jurong. The film is by a bunch of Ngee Ann Poly students and it's called "Paper Stars". I'm an Ah-lian who goes by the name of Ai-Ning and C is Lion-Jie (liong2 jie3) who is the "big gangster" and Amanda aka Bunny/Jester Bunny is Hui-Ting.
I smoked 25 sticks that day and had a really bad sore throat that night when talking to Cheez on the phone.
Bunny, C, M came over to swim.
Where did tuesday go?
Probably prom shopping.. I think.
I'm not sure.
But I know I was out.
Oh! It was Corpse Bride; R's birthday, so I was out with Eme and E.

Yesterday evening got The 2006 car crash group( M, T, L, Eme, Myself) plus Cheez adrenaline pumping. Every year or rather every holiday, something big must happen. Last year the car crash and this year it's this.
She reminded me of Jessica/Nikki from Heroes.

Tonight, I'll sleep beside Cheez and we'll count the imaginary stars.

Oh! Jester bunny is famous online, by the way. www.jesterbunny.blogspot.com
She is very funny and a fantastic actor.
I really need to read Toto-chan now.

This is my update and I'm going to town with Domo tomorrow to find for shoes then head for facial.
I need to send Lynn (My current maid) off with love tomorrow because I won't actually be there on sunday to send her off due to filming.
I heard that they're paying us 100-150 for 3 days of filming.
It's extremely tiring but it's worth it. 8am-8pm. Imagine that, 12 hours.

Oh and I just realised that my previous post makes No freaking Sense. >.<